i got to work late (as usual)-- and i passed gwen in the hallway... and even on her worst days, she always looks so put together. and today it annoys me for some reason... because we are at the same points in our lives pretty much and ive come to the realization that this is who i am. i am a mess. i'm weird. i'm a bit *quirky* and *gawky*-- or so ive been told. im too tall for most people. i don't pull off *girly things* very well-- little frou frou dresses and high heels... even though mentally i really AM girly and i do my best to expose that. i can be fun though, im learning to take people for who they are. i'm genuine. i spill food all over myself every time im in an expensive restaurant. i like to laugh. i work hard most of the time. i drink too much diet soda. i spend more money then i make. i have a cute boyfriend, a crappy car and a reoccuring headache. and i am me. i guess, its not so bad.